Just 55 minutes ago as I’m typing this, I was in the middle of trying to start a therapy session with my therapist. And, the link she gave me worked, it detected my webcam and seemingly the microphone. I had done a test 30 minutes prior to make sure things were working.
And by the time therapy started, the video worked, the microphone didn’t. So I went into system settings, verified that Google Chrome was pointed directly to my headset and the webcam, no cross-interfering with mics and audio. Went into Chrome itself, verified to settings that they were set to point exactly as to where they should be, correspondingly.
This thrust me into a 15 minute infuriating experience where, rebooting the browser and rebooting the machine now seemed to have made it so the site suddenly couldn’t fucking detect the webcam and microphone. For reasons, I don’t fucking know.
We had to do our session through my phone via Google Voice.
So the point of the matter is, is that shit decided to stop fucking working for WHATEVER reason, despite it working fine previously.
Fucking garbage. I destroyed the webcam out of frustration and filed an angry ticket to the site operator about how their fucking site couldn’t be bothered to detect my equipment after that.
Did you talk about this with your therapist? Bc you should.
My old therapist would refer to frustration as a resource we hoarde. We dump our frustration into a little water bottle, and when we’re not using adaptive coping mechanisms, we table it. But then later something frustrating happens (like your webcam experience), and though it is (truly) a minor setback, you’re stuck with this huge reaction. You got a stop hoarding your frustrations and learn to dump that water bottle out before it overflows.
This imagery is for me helpful because it helps me understand some disproportionate reactions I may have, and also quite clearly doesn’t shy away from negative emotion. Get angry, hell yeah. When it’s… Adaptive. This wasn’t adaptive.